Tower, Judgement, Temperance

I hang out with my groups of friends during the weekend and she brought her tarots again. I’d made up my mind and I feel no point of me trying out the cards anymore. My itchy hand played the game again and I decided to ask regarding my job again. The card strikes again and it was the same card which I took the last time I played it. Miracles ah! So I’d made my mind to leave this company as it does not really motivate me to work, due to low pay and such colleagues.

As I’d decided on my relationship, putting all out to repair my breakdowns with in my relationship, nothing much I would have ask to draw the second card. But somehow, somewhere in my mind, there’s him and my second card, judgement comes along. Is what she’s saying going to happen? I didn’t doubt the power of her cards, but yesterday I finally made up my mind and tell him that we should maintain as friends in conversation and actions. He agreed to it without further question. Deep in my heart, I do still think about him. As I thought that I’d removed him from my thoughts, he’ll be away from my life. Things are not as easy as it may seem as I dreamt about him last night. I might lose the chance as how the cards explained but I believe in if it’s yours, I’ll always be.

My current relationship can be considered quite stable, but my feelings seem on and off. It happens when he is talking to me at such and making me quite irritated and losing control over my temper. Sometimes, those disappointments come back when he says about something and those things never happen. Are we really meant to be together? I’m confused. So my third card comes in, temperance. Nothing pretty exciting about it but it may last. And so I told myself that I’d made the right decision to be who I am with as I do see him as the family guy who can rely on, but what about my feelings. Am I being with someone whom I can live with or be with someone who I can’t live without? On the other hand, I did thought about my feelings for these two guys. Is it I haven’t found the right one yet?

>> Finally got a chance to upload my blog. Last night I had a dream about him again. The touch of his hands gives me a warm n sweet feeling, something that it’s hard to explain. I thought to myself, am I getting myself more involve in him or is it just a company as it may seems?